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  They clipped a tree at the top of the hill and the Caprice became airborne. Clay couldn’t see anything and snuggled in his seat, enjoying the feel of lift-off. He counted three seconds and knew it would be bad when they came down. The explosive impact became a storm of anguish in his belly as his organs tore and rattled. Glass shattered and the shriek of twisting metal filled his head along. The diamond spear point of agony thrust into his brain, but it wasn’t enough to drown out Chuckie Fariente’s cries scattering across the tattered field as the Caprice came to an abruptly insane stop.

  Smoke rose and the air conditioner kicked out.

  The deluge of silence immersed the city.

  Flies crept over Clay’s throat and zipped off when his Adam’s apple bobbed.

  He heard the handcuffs rattling as Chuckie tried to free himself. Clay looked at his lap and saw nothing but a gaping black hole where his stomach had been, all of it ripped wide and emptied.

  He opened the door and crawled out, pieces of himself slipping to one side and then the other. Blood gushed from his nose and mouth but he still wasn’t down. Not until Chuckie went first.

  He leaned into the busted back window and saw Chuckie’s battered face.

  “Still with me, Chuckie?”

  “Just die, you bastard. Look at you! Just die!”

  “In a minute.”

  Clay gathered up the canisters of apple cinnamon air freshener and put them in Chuckie’s lap. He tilted down and kissed Edward on his black forehead and said, “Goodbye, my boy.”

  Clay backed up a few steps dragging viscera in a lengthy line. He pulled out the .38, aimed at Chuckie’s seat, and pulled the trigger. Chuckie howled and the high-pressure canisters detonated and ignited the interior of the car. Clay watched as slick Chuckie Fariente’s face flamed up, the fire eating all that goddamn mousse in his hair, the double Windsor knot of his tie, and those uncool, petrified eyes.

  The front of the Caprice had been completely buried in the crash, three tons of dirt splashing up like an colossal wave to encompass the hood and windshield. It was as good a grave as he was going to be able to offer them.

  The overwhelming moonlight gave the park a beautiful silver glaze which only brightened the harder he stared.

  Clay wandered down a hill a few steps, shuddering violently, maybe chuckling.

  There, in the shimmering luster of night, Kathy did a cheer in her high school outfit. Smiling, welcoming the opportunity to help him set free his failures and grant him another chance to get it right. But first-first, she said, with a glint of love in her eyes, hand swaying over his ass as if they were about to embrace in a wonderfully slow dance, first he had to take a little rest.

  So he laid down.

  ~ * ~

  ----For Coop; time to pull over and clean the car out, bro’

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  The Last Kind Words

  Available in June 2011

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  "Perfect crime fiction ... a convincing world, a cast of compelling characters, and above all a great story."—LEE CHILD, New York Times bestselling author of 61 Hours

  “For the first time since The Godfather, a family of criminals has stolen my heart. A brilliant mix of love and violence, charm and corruption. I loved it.”—NANCY PICKARD, New York Times bestselling author of The Scent of Rain and Lightning

  "You don't choose your family. And the Rand clan, a family of thieves and killers, is bad to the bone. But it's a testimony to Tom Piccirilli's stellar writing that you still care about each and every one of them. The Last Kind Words is at once a dark and brooding page-turner and a heartfelt tale about the ties that bind. Fans of Lee Child will love this hard-boiled, tough-as-nails novel."—Lisa Unger, New York Times bestselling author of Fragile

  “It's Piccirilli’s sense of relationships and the haunting power of family that lifts his writing beyond others in the genre. The Last Kind Words is a swift-moving and hard-hitting novel."

  —Michael Koryta, Edgar Award-nominated author of So Cold the River

  “A stunning story that ranges far afield at times but never truly leaves home, a place where shadows grow in every corner. It’s superbly told, with prose that doesn’t mess about or flinch from evil and characters who are best known from a distance.”

  —Daniel Woodrell, PEN award-winning author of Winter’s Bone

  "There's more life in Piccirilli's The Last Kind Words (and more heartache, action, and deliverance) than any other novel I've read in the past couple of years.”

  —Steve Hamilton, Edgar Award-winning author of The Lock Artist

  "You're in for a treat. Tom Piccirilli is one of the most exciting authors around. He writes vivid action that is gripping and smart, with characters you believe and care about.”

  —David Morrell, New York Times bestselling author of First Blood

  The Last Kind Words

  Tom Piccirilli

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  “Fear and hope are alike underneath.”

  –Richard Ford

  “Can’t do it, simply cause underneath ’em is too ugly.”

  –Billy Gibbons

  PART I

  MAKING GHOSTS

  I’d come five years and two thousand miles to stand in the rain while they prepared my brother for his own murder.

  He had two weeks to go before they strapped him down and injected poison into his heart. I knew Collie would be divided about it, the way he was divided about everything. A part of him would look forward to stepping off the big ledge. He’d been looking over it his whole life in one way or another.

  A different part of him would be full of rage and self-pity and fear. I had no doubt that when the time came he’d be a passive prisoner right up to the moment they tried to buckle him down. Then he’d explode into violence. He was going to hurt whoever was near him, whether it was a priest or the warden or a guard. They’d have to club him down while he laughed. The priest, if he was still capable, would have to raise his voice in prayer to cover my brother’s curses.

  I was twenty minutes late for my appointment at the prison. The screw at the gate didn’t want to let me in because he’d already marked me as a no show. I didn’t argue. I didn’t want to be there. He saw that I wanted to split and it was enough to compel him to let me stay.

  At the prison door another screw gave me the disgusted once over. I told him my name but the sound of it didn’t feel right anymore.

  “Terry Rand.”

  The fake ID I’d been living under the past half decade had become a safe harbor, a slim chance to better myself even though I hadn’t done much yet. I resented being forced to return to the person I’d once been.

  The screw made me repeat my name. I did. It was like ice on my tongue. Then he made me repeat it again. I caught on.

  “Terrier Rand.”

  Expressionless, he led me off to a small side room where I was frisked and politely asked if I would voluntarily succumb to a strip search. I asked what would happen if I said no. He said I wouldn’t be allowed to proceed. It was a good enough reason to turn around. I owed my brother nothing. I could return out west and get back to a life I was still trying to believe in and make real.

  Even as I decided to leave I was shrugging out of my jacket and kicking off my shoes. I got naked and held my arms up while the screw ran his hands through my hair and checked between my ass cheeks and under my scrotum.

  He stared at the dog tattoo that took up the left side of my chest covering three bad scars. One was from when Collie had stabbed me with the bayonet of a tin Revolutionary War toy soldier when I was seven. I got a deep muscle infection that the doctor had to go digging after, leaving the area a rutted, puckered purple.

  Another was from when I was twelve and my father sent me up the drainpipe to a house that was supposedly empty. A seventy-five year old lady picked up a Tiffany-styl
e lamp and swatted me three stories down into a hibiscus tree. A rib snapped and pierced the flesh. My old man got me into the car and pulled the bone shard through by hand as the sirens closed in and he drove up on sidewalks to escape. The scar was a mottled red and thick as a finger.

  The last one I didn’t think about. I had made an art of not thinking about it.

  The screw took pride in his professional indifference, courteous yet dismissive. But the tattoo caught his attention.

  “Your family, you’re some serious dog lovers, eh?”

  I didn’t answer. One last time he checked through my clothes for any contraband. He tossed them back to me and I got dressed.

  I was taken to an empty visiting room. I sat in a chair and waited for them to bring Collie in. It didn’t matter that there was a wall of reinforced glass between us. I wasn’t going to pass him a shiv and we weren’t going to shake hands or hug out twenty years of tension. The only time we’d ever touched was when we were trying to beat the hell out of each other. I’d been thinking hard about the reasons for that on the ride back east. How could it be that I had such resentment and animosity for him, and he for me, and yet when he called I came running?

  They led him in draped in chains. He could only shuffle along a few inches at a time, his hands cuffed to a thick leather belt at his waist, his feet separated by a narrow chain, bracelets snapped to his ankles. It took ten minutes to unlock him. The screws retreated and Collie twirled his chair around and sat backwards, like always.

  Like most mad dog convicts, prison agreed with him. He was a lot more fit than he’d ever been on the outside. The huge beer belly had been trimmed back to practically nothing, his arms thick and muscular and covered in twisted black veins. There was a new gleam in his eye that I couldn’t evaluate.

  He had old scars from drunken brawls and new ones from the joint that gave him a sense of character he’d never exhibited before. Like me, he’d gone gray prematurely. He had a short but well-coiffed mane of silver with a few threads of black running through it. I noticed he’d also had a manicure and a facial. He glowed a healthy pink. He’d been moisturized and exfoliated and closely-shaved. The nancies on C-Block could open up a salon in East Hampton and make a mint off Long Island’s wealthy blue-haired biddies.

  I expected that with his execution only two weeks off, and with five years gone and all the uneasy blood still between us, we would need to pause and gather our thoughts before we spoke. I imagined we would stare at each other, making our usual judgments and taking each other’s measure. We’d then bypass trivial concerns to speak of extreme matters, whatever they might be. With a strange reservation, a kind of child-like hesitation, I lifted the phone and cleared my throat.

  Collie moved with the restrained energy of a predator, slid forward in his seat, did a little rap a tap on the glass. He grasped the phone and first thing let loose with a snorted, easy laugh. He looked all around until he finally settled on my eyes.

  He usually spoke with a quick, jazzy bop tempo, sometimes muttering out of the corner of his mouth or under his breath as if to an audience situated around him. This time he was focused. He nodded once, more to himself than me, and said, “Listen, Ma hates me, and that’s all right, but you, you’re the one who broke her heart. You–”

  I hung up the phone, stood, and walked away.

  I was nearly to the door when Collie’s pounding on the glass made me stop. It got the screws looking in on us. I kept my back to my brother. My scalp crawled and I was covered in sweat. I wondered if what he’d said was true. It was the best trick he had, getting me to constantly question myself. Even when I knew he was setting me up I couldn’t keep from falling into the trap. I wondered if my mother’s heart really had broken when I’d left. I thought of my younger sister Dale still waiting for me to read her romantic vampire fantasy novels. My father on the porch with no one to sit with. My Gramp losing his memories, fighting to retain them, now that there was nobody to stroll around the lake with and discuss the best way to trick out burglar alarms.

  Collie kept on shouting and banging. I took another step. I reached for the handle. Maybe if I’d made my fortune out west I would have found it easier to leave him there yelling. Maybe if I’d gotten married. Maybe if I’d raised a child.

  But none of that had happened. I took a breath, turned, and sat again. I lifted the phone.

  “Jesus, you’re still sensitive,” he said. “I only meant that you need to stop thinking about yourself and go see the family–”

  “I’m not going to see the family. Why did you call me here, Collie?”

  He let out a quiet laugh. He pointed through the huge glass window off to the side of us, which opened on an area full of long tables. His gaze was almost wistful. “You know, we were supposed to be able to talk over there. In that room, face to face. On this phone, talking to you like this, it’s not the way I wanted it to be.”

  “How did you want it to be?”

  He grinned and shrugged, and the thousand questions that had once burned inside of me reignited. I knew he wouldn’t answer them. My brother clung to his secrets, great and small. He’d been interviewed dozens of times for newspaper articles and magazines and books, and while he gave intimate, awful details, he never explained himself. It drove the courts, the media, and the public crazy even now.

  And me too. Words bobbed in my throat but never made it out. The timeworn campaigns and disputes between us had finally receded. I no longer cared about the insults, the torn pages, the girls he stole from me, or the way he’d run off on short cons gone bad, leaving me to take beatings from the marks. It had taken a lot of spilled blood to make me forgive him, if in fact I had. If not, it would only matter another few days.

  On the long night of his rampage, my brother went so far down into the underneath that he didn’t come back up until after he’d murdered eight people. A vacationing family of five shot to death in a mobile home, a gas station attendant knifed in a men’s room, an old lady beat to death outside a convenience store, a young woman strangled in a park.

  None of them had been robbed. He hadn’t taken anything, hadn’t even cleaned out the register at the gas station.

  It wasn’t our way. It had never been our way. I thought of my Gramp Shepherd again. One of my earliest memories was of him telling us all around a Thanksgiving dinner, You’re born thieves, it’s your nature, handed down to me, handed down from me. This is our way. He’d been getting ready to cut into a turkey Collie had boosted from the King Kullen.

  Collie turned on the charm, showed me his perfect teeth, and said, “Been a long time, Terry You look good. Trim, built up. You’re as dark as if you’d been dipped in a vat of maple syrup.”

  “I work on a ranch.”

  “Yeah? What, busting broncos? Roping cattle? Like that?”

  “Like that.”

  “Where? Colorado? Montana?”

  That question made me frown. I’d been eager to know how he’d managed to track me down. I’d been off the grift for years, living under an assumed name, doing an honest job. I thought I’d covered my tracks well, but four days ago, after coming in from digging fence posts, I’d received a phone call from a woman whose voice I didn’t recognize. She’d told me Collie wanted to see me before he died.

  “You already know. How’d you find me?”

  “I put in a call.”

  “To who?”

  “Who do you think?”

  He meant our family, who had connections all over the circuit. I’d half-expected that they’d somehow kept tabs on me. They must’ve gotten in touch with the people I’d gotten my fake ID from and shadowed me through the years. I should have realized my father wouldn’t let me go so easily.

  But that voice on the phone didn’t belong to anyone I knew. I wondered if my other identity had been completely blown and I’d have to start over again, rebuild another new life. How many more did I have left in me?

  “It’s been good seeing you, Terry. I’m glad you came.
We both need a little more time.”

  I’d barely slept over the last four days and all the miles gunning across the country suddenly caught up with me. I felt tired as hell. “What are you talking about, Collie?”

  “Come back tomorrow or the day after. They gave you shit at the door, I can tell. Rousted you, strip searched you? If they try that again tell them to fuck themselves.” He raised his voice again and shouted at the screws. “Dead man walking has at least a couple of extra privileges!”

  “Listen, I’m not–”

  “Take some time to settle yourself.”

  “I don’t want to settle myself. I’m not coming back tomorrow, Collie.”

  “Go home. Visit the family. I’ll tell you what I need when I see you again.”

  I started breathing through my teeth. “What you need. I’m not running drugs for you. I’m not icing anybody on the outside for you. I’m not sending around a petition to the governor. I’m not coming back.”

  It got him laughing again. “You’re home. You’re going to see the family because you’ve missed them. You’ve been gone a long time and proven whatever point you had to make, Terry. You can stick it out on your own. You’re your own man. You’re not Dad. You’re not me.” He cupped the phone even more tightly to his mouth. “Besides, you love them and they love you. It’s time to say hello again.”